Service

I was told something yesterday that made me think.  I was told that one may go into a branch of service because they need someone to tell them what to do.  When I first heard this I tried to control my facial expression and bite my tongue.  My first thought was that person lacks drive and is unable to push themselves to accomplish goals. I am not to judge but sometimes people talk and phrase words to according to what they think you want to hear. Oh well. The reason that I am thinking about this is because I still have the want to go into the service.  I was offered chances several times in my life but my fear or discouragement has prevented me to do so.  I want to go not to become a follower or to be tasked on how to live my life.  I want to be a leader.  Well, I am a leader and I would step into a leadership position. I wonder if I passed the age requirement. Yikes!  Anyway being a leader you have to be motivated and motivate others. Not necessarily “Tell them what to do”.  I know for me if I don’t want to do something words will not persuade me.  I have my own thoughts and my own mind and refuse to act like some sad little guppy with no direction in life.  I just finished reading The Alchemist and now I am looking at this military thing in a different light.  I am like the Crystal store owner in a way or maybe the baker.  I am going to research this more because I know this is not where I want to be.  I want more out of life.  I always work hard for what I want just have to get over the fear.  Fear is an inhibitor and will block success.  I fear failure but at this point failure is not an option so it does not even exist.