Inside a Scorpio's Mind (just a little bit)

How is it someone will try and throw you under the bus but as a Scorpio you are in their head you know the motives and plots they have before them.  I keep my eyes open and my concerns are confirmed.  Paranoia? Nah, facts.  Chess play your move.  One step behind me always.  So fucking predictable.  Scorpios deal with logic, plots, plans, manipulations, and deceit.  I would never cross a fellow Scorpio because that would bring on a never ending silent mental war.  A battle of the jealous and unforgiving.  When a fellow Scorpio crosses me I would accept.  Never fold my hand.  The shit will never end.  How can you battle yourself (per say).  Just wait.  Eventually one will make the move that will bring its own demise.  I don't care if it takes twenty years.  The entire time watching your prey squirm while laughing inside.  Its funny, I have so many Scorpio friends male and female and we all know better.  Only a dummy would step out there and cross that unspoken line.  Only the immature and unprepared would make such a hasty move.  Ive been laughing all week.  I just sit back and say.  I see.  With a sly smile and fire behind my eyes. Waiting. Watching the worm on the hook dance around from fear but the bait never comes.

Funeral, funeral, funeral ( death comes in threes)

I am so sick and tired of hearing that we as people are not taking care of our health. As I sit here and prepare myself for yet another funeral and pray for the strength of my friend and her family to not go through one so soon I can't help but get upset. Too many of us are dying at young ages for neglecting what is most important. How can you live a good quality of life if we destroy our bodies or live out the time we have in pain. People want to have fun but fail to realize the damage they are impacting on the body that they will have to live with at a later date. When people get sick they are so quick to run and fill a prescription without asking why are asking for natural alternatives. I'm trying to figure out why an old lady has to get a kidney transplant from having her kidney destroyed from arthritis pills. I am
trying to figure out why men in they late 40's are dying of congestive heart failure. Why are people so quick to cure a problem with a pill instead of finding other methods. Pumping our kids with this cough syrup so they can go to school instead if taking a day off to nurture them back to a healthy state. Huh? The quick fix. Everyone should know by now the quick fix is a temporary solution. The quick fix always comes with consequences. When will people educate themselves on what is really going on. Stop looking for Fox News to tell you what you think you need to know what "they" want you to know. We need to ask who is the doctor working for the client, the pharmaceutical company, or himself. If you say they are working for the client will you give them complete trust and leave the matters of your life in the palm of your doctors hand. If you say the pharmaceutical company, then look at the numbers and learn how the business is really ran. If you think the doctor works for himself then trust and believe. They will do what they have to do to make sure their family is A-okay.
Open your eyes.

Service

I was told something yesterday that made me think.  I was told that one may go into a branch of service because they need someone to tell them what to do.  When I first heard this I tried to control my facial expression and bite my tongue.  My first thought was that person lacks drive and is unable to push themselves to accomplish goals. I am not to judge but sometimes people talk and phrase words to according to what they think you want to hear. Oh well. The reason that I am thinking about this is because I still have the want to go into the service.  I was offered chances several times in my life but my fear or discouragement has prevented me to do so.  I want to go not to become a follower or to be tasked on how to live my life.  I want to be a leader.  Well, I am a leader and I would step into a leadership position. I wonder if I passed the age requirement. Yikes!  Anyway being a leader you have to be motivated and motivate others. Not necessarily “Tell them what to do”.  I know for me if I don’t want to do something words will not persuade me.  I have my own thoughts and my own mind and refuse to act like some sad little guppy with no direction in life.  I just finished reading The Alchemist and now I am looking at this military thing in a different light.  I am like the Crystal store owner in a way or maybe the baker.  I am going to research this more because I know this is not where I want to be.  I want more out of life.  I always work hard for what I want just have to get over the fear.  Fear is an inhibitor and will block success.  I fear failure but at this point failure is not an option so it does not even exist.